When we are mothers, we are not just mothers. We are multi talents and multi-tasking! The first thing we learn is to do everything with one hand. Like our baby’s we grow, learn and developing new skills as a Mama.
But what if, because of all the things we do and all the things we must think about, totally forget to watch our baby grow!
Yes, we can’t wait for the new milestone. The first smile! the first grabs! The roll over! The first tooth!
I was constantly waiting for the next milestone!
Same with his nappy time. I always waited that he fall asleep to actually get things done in the house! The laundry, the lunch or dinner, the grocery list. Maybe a shower or making myself something to eat.
Those are all the things every mother does and of course we can get things done better and faster when baby is sleeping!
Today when I brought my son to bed for his nap it hit me!
He is 8-month-old. HE IS ALREADY 8-MONTH-OLD. I’m happy that he has his first teeth and that he started crawling but where the heck are the last 8 months!?
Being busy with baby, house, moving, husband, job and friends, I have the feeling I missed and waisted so much time, even if I was there.
I was holding and rocking my baby to sleep (yes, I still do that and I’m totally happy with it) when I started to cry. I realized that his newborn and baby days are almost over. His independency started already and soon he is off to college. LOL!
Seriously, I questioned myself if I hold my baby enough, did I watch him sleep enough, did I kiss his little tiny feed and fingers enough?
I hold him today longer than usually and dug my nose in his hair and neck! I rocked him with more passion, more awareness and more love. I notice that I was holding him a little stronger as well because out of the sudden I got anxious that one day in the future, he doesn’t want to be held again!
I know, I spend an enormous amount of time with him in last 8 month, but I am not sure if I always had this awareness of holding, watching, smelling and feeling him. Those baby months are flying by and I have wished I would be more conscious about it!
Today I left the dirty dishes on the table, today I left the laundry in the dryer and today I will not get a shower before afternoon. Today I will just hold him longer. I’m still sitting in the nursery and listing to his sound of sleep! I am enjoying him just a little longer.
I know the next exploding diaper will come, I know the next fussy phase is around the corner and the next stubbornness will hit me hard but for today I will hold you a little longer!
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